Dear post-grad brain, give me a break.
It's been wildly unsettling and thrilling all at once not to be back at school. I love learning, I just hate sitting still. Whoever suggested the three-hour lecture must have been a masochist who hated students. HONESTLY!!!
Between work and (still) getting settled into our new digs, I've been DESPERATELY trying to figure out what it is I want to DO with my LIFE. Don't get me wrong, I like the field I'm in, a lot. I just feel like there's a thing I'm supposed to be doing and I can't put my finger on it. I'm sure I'm not alone in feeling this way.
There's comfort in riding the education train -- your parents sign you up when you're just a wee peanut and away you go, for years. YEARS. I spent an additional two in university in order to get the paper that now sits at the bottom of my storage trolley... I should probably get it framed. But really, leaving the comforting smell of new stationary in September and the faces of your sunkissed friends upon returning to classes has a way of igniting a sense of panic that is hard to extinguish.
This is where I've found myself lately. Between feeling completely free and utterly crippled by the question that looms over me -- now what?
Well, there are billions of answers to that question, and knowing that offers me a little bit of relief but mostly just more stress because hi, where does a girl begin? Have you been feeling the same?
Thankfully it's Friday and the weekend which = a lil bit o' Kaela time, a time I want to use to give my projects some love (looking at you, blog). My coworker, Tom, joked this week by saying we need to schedule accountability meetings for my blog because I keep jumping back in and then leaving you all hanging. Dear readers who stick with me, thank you. I will be better. I want to be better!
For those of you staying in tonight and want some movie recommendations, I highly suggest you watch The Story of Diana and/or this documentary about backup vocalists and the legends they support. Both are available on the 'flix (Netflix, that is).
Exciting things are coming next week, but for now, have a wonderful weekend!